Cole's Night Night

Tonight I spent some extra time in Coleman's room putting him to bed. As I was hugging him before lifting him into bed, he said, "I love you so much. I miss you when I sleep." I sang 4 verses of Amazing Grace as his little eyes just stared at me as he lay quietly under the covers. After that, as my arms fell asleep from reaching onto the top bunk to rub his sweet head, memories came rushing back. That same feeling of tingling arms is one of those sensory memories that has stuck with me, and reminds me of the many many nights I would hang over the crib, patting this same sweet boy's back, praying that he would fall asleep and stay asleep when I walked out. My arms would always fall asleep but I was afraid to stop the rhythm before hearing those deep baby breaths, for fear of stirring him back awake. And I did the same thing 2 years before with his sister. Despite the exhaustion and the late and sleepless nights, the memories are sweet. My baby boy still loves to be held by Mommy or Daddy, and he loves to lay his head on our shoulders. He likes me to hold him and sway him to sleepiness in his room at night. I will hold onto this as long as I can! Cole has been having some rough days at school. He has cried a couple of mornings this week as I dropped him off, which he hasn't EVER done. His teachers say it is normal after a birthday, and I know it's normal but it is still heartbreaking. Ms. Yolanda has emailed me letting me know how his day is going, and they let him come find me before leaving to give me one extra hug too. Yesterday was particularly hard for him so he needed some extra cuddles last night. He woke up yelling for me in the night, which is also unlike him. I was happy to "rescue" that boy and cuddle him the rest of the night. He slept ON TOP of me with his head against mine. He just needed to drink up some Mommy time, I think. I am happy to "let them be little" for sure! Oh how I love this boy!!!